I love You

  Hi ! Its been so long I did'nt post any words in this stupid blog . Ohhh . Ohkay !  1 2 3 mula !

                  19.02.2013 . 1.39 am .
I dont know what I feel right now . Maybe a bit sad ? And confiusion ! Hergh ! I really really really hate it .
Guys , my feel is added by many unknown products . Shit ! First thing , I wanna hug someone :( 
I really mean it . Why ? Because my heart is been cut by APEK . Why again ? Because , when I start to love him with full heart , he had a relationship on his Facebook . You know what , not IN A RELATIONSHIP but it's MARRIED . Ohhhh my heart broken .

       I stalk his Facebook on 18.02.2013 at 1.00 am . Actually its already 19.02 but . Argh ! Ignore that one kay .I stalk his photo . His status . And my ' eagle ' eyes go straight to the ABOUT . My eyes getting red and red and red and start to collect the water . HAHA . Hope you guys understand my ' fishy ' words . I thought my heart was been cut to 14 pieces . In heart , Ya Allah . Beratnya dugaan :(

      Then I started to update my Tuwit tuwit . I was really really confuse . What are his feeling towards me and the girl ? I started to think and think . I wanna ask his good friend , Mal but Mal already slept . Maybe ? Then I continue my confusion alone . The longer I being alone , then the more I think . Yes ! I just remembered , he never showed his attention to me . kay . Examples : When I start to browse my Facebook account , I saw his account in my chatbox . But he never starts any conversation with me . Weird right ? If he  truely love me , of course he will always waiting for me .

    Same goes to Twitter . I just mute myself and wanna see his attitude more further . Then I got detected his attitude .He is weird weird weird ! I'm affraid he's playing on me . Well , truthly . I start to like him. And I hope he also goes to the same feels like me . But , Argh . I only can wipe my tears *.* I thought he was the right person to love me .But NO NO NO ! It was Triple NO ! Okay . Nowplaying #Patahseribu .

   Yes , he is a kind boy . But he always walling with other girl . Yes ! I admit it . Myself is full of jealousy .Hello , can youguys think ? Its look like I was trying to chase his love like the crazy Timah wants Bakan .What The Fishyyyyyyy ! I hate feeling like this . About OWN . HAHA . Own is my secret admire . I like him . He takes good care of me :) Everyday he will ' usha ' me from his sitting place . What a sweet candy !
Yes . Okay , I gotta close my secret about Own . ahaha . (If Own know this , he will chock me !)

    Lastly , I hope if there's no longer Apek's love for me , I hope he can find his truely love and maybe WIFE ? Yes , everyone has their own right to choose the perfect life mate for them . I will sit and pray for your happiness , Apek . And ofcourse , I WILL MISS our friendly conversation everyday until death come to pick me up . HAHA . Bye , nite . 
This is for you , PATAH SERIBU .

Apek :(

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